May in a different way

It's not a usual thing for meong to use another language than bahasa indonesia. Ya, a little bit peculiar, but meong think this topic will come out better in this language. Or maybe meong just used to when it come to this topic.

So, today May is over. It's June already. Life goes on, que sera sera. But meong still can't moving on from May yet. This year's May is the most rolling coasting month. You may think we don't know that since this years is only halfway through. But meong know. Whatever happen after May will never beat May.

This year's May is very memorable for meong. In a month (or maybe less), meong feel like learn a lot. Through a lot. Experience a lot. You know, haruki murakami ever said about the storm. That when you come put off the storm, you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm is all about.

So, May is meong's storm. It's kinda ironic for meong, this year's May is. You know, it is May. It should be full of possibility, hope, lots of maybe this maybe that, we could do this, could do that. But this May for Meong is full of regret, inevitable pain, lots of what if, why can't be this, why not that. In May meong realized how lucky meong is, but May told meong that in a very harsh way. Very cruel, very... very... punchy. When it comes to the end of something you like, you always want a little more. Just a little more. Even a very tiny little bit. But May just cut it. No more. This is meong's portion, take what you deserve. Take what have you choosed. Yes, there's something else that can make you happy outside your portion, but since you have choosed don't be greedy or else you'll lose everything.

It's hurt, but in pain we learn something. Something that we never got before, something new. The pain will past and the knowledge will last. Meong will be stronger, will be wiser.

So now meong see May in a very different way. May is a month of intensive learning, a very hard exercise. Meong may not a strong cat, but meong will through all of this with a smile. I hope you will get trhough this with smiling too. Live well you said, meong wish you same as well. We all should be happy after May. We should. Otherwise it's all for nothing.